Thursday, June 12, 2008

Time

I think its sort of crazy when you are young time creeps by so slowly and you can't wait for things. Then you get a little older and time goes by a little quicker. Still not quickly enough though, you can't wait for the next step in your life and you can't wait to get past the mistakes and the awkward years. And then you get a little older and you realize you still have the same amount of hours in the day but they are flying by at a pace that you can't quite comprehend until you get just slightly older and you realize its warp speed...and that's where I am right now.

I find it strange as well that Chris and I do the exact same things we did before we got married and we have less time to do those same things. It makes no sense...marriage=time zapper. I feel like more than ever I have a certain amount of time and I am not a very good manager of it. I think it has something to do with my attention span which is shorter than Chiclet's on a good day, but also I think I have too many things and not enough focus.

I suppose this next year will be full of a lot of things I have to do. This year its things that the house requires of me. Chris doesn't require much at all. In fact I think he still feels like a bachelor. He comes home and has a dinner I make...usually...and does what he does. I think he thinks of me as a bonus. Haha, what a lousy bonus! I guess sometimes I am a bonus, but I work on my little projects too. We combine forces when the house gets out of hand, or when there is a project we both want to work on, like the yard for example. Or sometimes we realize we don't know what the other is doing and we go investigate and it leads to something fun like a trip to Klines on the motorcycle, or to blockbuster or to the park, or just for a walk. But rarely do we just sit together for hours at a time to do what who knows what people do together...haha.

I guess from time to time I need him to hammer something I can't reach and he needs input on a logo he is designing, but I am wondering what powers we will unearth when we actually work together. He is working on a web site for Tim and Sasha right now and for Jodi too. And I suppose when he's done with those he'll dust mine off and get cracking on that. I want to help him get some part time work with his web design etc. I think that would make him feel more satisfied creatively...but all this makes me wonder, where is all the time going?

I am posting this thing at 1:40am(approx.) and I am about to go upstairs and clean the guest bedroom even more and finish setting it up. And I have to be up very early tomorrow and I have four projects I have to finish tomorrow. I am swamped but I am not seeing results. I wonder when things will slow down a bit and I can get caught up. I feel like this warp speed has put me in a time warp and I am unable to get out of it. I guess I'll let you know when I am caught up.

4 comments:

Sasha Rothwell said...

Hey Dearest! Wow, ya know all I can say is it's true and welcome to life as a wife! Hey that rhymed:)

Take heart my friend cause it only gets harder through a child into the mix or an ailment and it gets even crazier. But ya know what I'm learning, if there is one thing that lasts its people and to me my husband and little girl are my first priority. If that rest doesn't get done it's ok. Work will always be there but they won't! I encourage you to surround your husband with help and encouragement that work will give you benefits like no other!

Maybe, Annya and I could come a day next week and help you with a project! What day would be good for you?

I love you so much!

Sasha Rothwell said...

oops... I meant to say throw a child in the mix. :) hehe

Jodi Miller said...

I'm with Sasha, I'm willing to help you out with a project! It would be fun for us all to hang out together.

I can't wait for tonight, Kurt and I are trying to figure out dinner...he has so many ideas in his head!

Sasha Rothwell said...

Hey Lynne could you e-mail me? I'd like to talk to Chris about the site. We want to pay him of course but would like to make sure that we can afford him before he gets to far into it. And if he wants to do it I'd like to show him a few that I like to give him and Idea of what we are going for!

our e-mail is - rothwell@comcast.net

Thanks! Love ya!